Crying on the Kitchen Floor: A Memoir by Paytas, Trisha

From THE Trisha Paytas, icon of our digital age and your favorite influencer's favorite influencer, a raw and uproarious memoir that explores what happens when the lines between fame and infamy blur.

No person has reinvented themselves more times than Trisha Paytas. Like a phoenix, she has risen from the ashes again and again--outliving social media platforms, navigating ill-fated and explosively popular podcasts alike, and finding herself on the wrong end of more messy feuds than she can count. As one of the world's first influencers, she helped create the blueprint for a new kind of celebrity. But across a career marked by both dizzying highs and earth-shattering lows, one question has followed her for years: What the hell was she thinking?

In Crying on the Kitchen Floor, Trisha sets out to find the answer once and for all by opening up like never before. She recounts in vivid, shocking detail how an insatiable need for fame led a quiet girl from Illinois to life on the seedy streets of Hollywood. From dangerous encounters with potential serial killers to abusive relationships with former child stars, countless reality TV cameos, and, ultimately, taking over the internet, Trisha's desperate search for identity nearly cost her everything. Now, after decades spent battling mental health issues and weathering endless cancellations, she shares how she managed to fight her way to high ground, even as the world she helped build transformed beneath her feet.

Combining the grittiness of Julia Fox's Down the Drain and the unsparing honesty of Bunnie XO's Stripped Down, Crying on the Kitchen Floor serves as a beacon of hope for anyone still searching for their happily ever after as Trisha details how she was able to find peace by looking for answers not in fame, money, or men--but in herself.

Author: Trisha Paytas
Publisher: Grand Central Publishing
Published: 11/10/2026
Pages: 368
Binding Type: Hardcover
Weight: 1.21lbs
Size: 9.28h x 6.22w x 1.33d
ISBN: 9781538781173

Review Citation(s):
Kirkus Reviews 11/01/2026
Booklist 11/01/2026

About the Author
Trisha Paytas is a media personality known for shaping the modern creator landscape as one of the internet's first influencers. She posted her first video on YouTube in 2007, just 2 years after the website's inception, and has since amassed a devoted following of over 20 million fans across platforms. She has guest starred in more than 50 television shows and films, including Saturday Night Live, Celebrity Big Brother UK, Euphoria, Hacks, and America's Got Talent. She lives in Los Angeles with her husband Moses and their children Malibu Barbie, Elvis, and Aquaman.